Man’s Biggest Fear


F. W. Murnau. Nosferatu Shadow. Web. 23 Mar. 2015.

I write dark fiction, and I have learned what it is that man fears most.

About a year ago, I took a much-needed break from social networking and closed all but one of my online accounts to reevaluate long and short term goals, finish overdue projects, and to deal with personal issues.

I spent the majority of that year recuperating from a ripped tendon in my arm (it still hurts), and adjusting to an auto-immune disease, which had gone undiagnosed for many years (Hashimoto’s). At its height, the disease left me bedridden for a few months. I’m feeling much better now and back to a regular routine.

During this time, my youngest daughter was diagnosed with HFA (high-functioning autism). My eldest daughter graduated from high school and began attending an art and design school in Finland. My father was diagnosed with liver cancer. The doctor gave him six months to a year. He beat those odds but is very sick. Managing all these changes with writing, blogging, and social networking proved to be too much for me to handle so I went off the grid.

Once the dust settled, I wasn’t sure I wanted to come back to the virtual world. The topics I covered were mostly random musings and entertainment-esque in nature, but I also covered issues such as equal rights, feminism, and domestic violence. And that’s when I learned what man feared most.

No, it’s not monsters. Nor is it murderers. It’s not natural disasters or superbugs. It’s not aliens either. And it’s not the apocalypse.

The biggest fear of man is equality and diversity. (Cue not all men retorts followed by my inevitable response: your not all men/white people/religious affiliation arguments are dismissive and unproductive, and shut down constructive discussion on serious social issues such as rape, violence, abuse, equal rights, racism, religious discrimination/bigotry/violence).

My posts on feminism, domestic violence awareness, and equality were hated (read, feared by those who enjoy their privileged status and don’t want to lose it) so much so that some felt the need to send me rape threats and threats of violence.

As before, I’ll continue to speak out against social injustice.

I’m human. And I support equality for ALL.

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